This is the moment we live for. The one where you get to decide everything. Where you live, what you want to do, who you do this adventure with, how you do it and what is important to you. What a complete and utter blessing! What a terrifying place to be standing!
Each moving piece drifts into my mind and I quickly dismiss them as a distant thought. Until, they return vigorously knocking and am I reminded that this is the reality in front of me: a world of infinite possibility followed by a fork in the road.
Two months ago, I did something a little crazy. I quit my job, intentionally pulled the comfort right out from under myself and started a new path. I moved to a place I once called home. The place I attribute my identity to. Without employment, I took a chance on myself and my ability to create and hustle. I left town with a boy and brought him to my home.
I’ve never looked back.
The home I returned to has a whole new facade and pulse. It has been five years since I have spent my days here. The people are changed, there are new buildings, I am changed, the sky is still breathtaking and the mountains continue to hold my soul.
Coming back, I naively expected the place I left. While the streets and trails are the same and the faces familiar, to me, this place is mostly new. People always told me, “Go! You can always come back. This will always be here.” They weren’t wrong. The place is still here but time has continued on without me. The soul of the place that I left, is older and changed. As is mine.
Summer is coming to an end and the ground under my feet is shifting. The life I left two months ago is calling me back like a room full of old friends. The life in front of me is a party that I have not been to before but they are serving plates of potential, wine of wonder and drugs that may knock you out or, may give you total elation. As I stand here looking at each, I realize a rain check is not an appropriate response to either invite. The time is now. This time will not wait.
Stability, city, safe and smart. Freedom, forests, fumbling and new frontiers.
This is the moment we live for. The one where you get to decide everything.What a complete and utter blessing! What a terrifying place to be standing.